After a long time

Hey here I am!!!like all the computers I am sure that even humans have hardware and software...hmmm what can it be ?Of course our body constitute the hardware and our soul the software ...We need to upgrade our sofware from time to time to match up with the various aspects of life !!!and we need to keep our hardware in check to see that it has the ability to accept the sofware.Our hardware and sofware put together makes us a whole ,a being...Some great person has said "Winning is not everything but wanting to win is everything".what makes a person a winner, I would call any one a winner when he accepts his hardships as a food to his software and every person a loser who takes his hardships on hardware...Hey too much of HTML philosophy right...I am what u can call a emotional wreck,I have lost the abilty to love and Im impaired in the sence that I have taken my hardships on my sofware very adversly....so does that make me a loser I wonder!!!and I have taken it my on body too in the sence that makes me a BIG ass and I am sure I need what in medical terminolgy an ASS TRANSPLANT AND also a life transplant.I dont want live my life no more I want someone else's...but I want a life!!!I love to live...SO any docs out there who can give these trasnplants...I wonder!!!